they are so fricken fricken fricken adorable … they are so tiny but tonight started swimming around a bit … they are all head and little tail … they look orange and white striped to me … two of the red eggs hatched and there were the two tiniest puffers i think i have ever seen … if they had of been in the pail i would never have seen them … i think once they start swimming i gotta start feeding … microworms here i come … these worms are disgusting … it is a culture made of yeast, oatmeal and bananas and of course microworms … if you look at the container they are in (kinda like a transparent deli container) you can see these microscopic worms climbing the walls … i am seriously gagging thinking of it … i also have to start some brine shrimp going cuz they will only eat the baby ones that move … i bought frozen baby shrimp but i am not sure if they eat unless it is moving … i called the guy at the pet store where i got the worm culture to get some more information about it and he told me to, get this, take my finger and run it along the worms and dip my finger into the fish tank … if we were not on the phone i would have vomited on him … i told him definitely that would not be happening, it is all i can do to not toss them out my patio door but the fry must eat … and i love my fry …

well last week i was all bummed when i lost the fry i had collected back into the main tank … and since it is somewhat a process to vacuum for the fry i decided to wait till this week’s tank maintenance … i have to take everything out of the tank except for real plants (although i have been leaving the sinkers on the plants from the fish store which makes it very easy to uproot and move planted plants) … this includes the java hut, java moss, seven fake plants, rocks, driftwood, you get the idea … i did a serious vacuuming of the entire tank and found 12 free swimming fry as well as tons of eggs … about half the eggs are reddish and half are clear … the reddish ones will most likely hatch, the white ones maybe not … i have a whole set-up ordered from big al’s to house them for the next two months while they grow up … i am motivated to search for fry as long as they keep spawning … and i found a macro setting on my camera so my videos are going to be much better :o)

is that now redundant in this day and age of caller id ??? does it age me when i leave my cell number in a message to another cell ??? would young people chuckle at the old person leaving a number when obviously it is on the phone you are calling … i am 42 years old and i think i just felt old for the first time … how awful :o)

holy shit this number bugs me … of course it is supposed to relate to a sexual position and it just fricken drives me when people put this number in their email address … why would people do that ??? i assume they must be teenagers who just lack the maturity but sometimes i think it is adults too … i sell and give away stuff on craigslist all the time and when i get an email with a 69 in it, i first want to punch that person or tell their parents, then i immediately delete … and it is not that i have anything against a 69 … i have been known to participate in such position … but to put that in your email address, that is just messed up …

i am sad to say that i am an idiot … i had the dwarf puffer fry in a bowl and i had a 5 gallon tank cycled and ready for the fry … but i had not plugged in the heater so i decided to put the fry in a net hanging in the main tank while the 5 gallon tank heated up … my thought process being that hanging them in a net in the water and temperature they are used to would be okay for one night while i heated up the other tank … i put some java moss in the net for them to hang on to … well when i got up in the morning i went straight to the fry and they were all gone :o( it seems that the mesh of the net, the holes were big enough to let the fry out :o( i was sooooooooooooooo bummed out … this weekend i am going to do another power vacuum to see if i can find some more … the fish were still spawning last night so i am hopeful :o)

sucks the bag … while i do not claim to be a computer genius i have used computers and many different programs so that i feel i can usually make my way around … even if i have to google some help or ask for some clarification i can usually get around … but this fricken windows movie maker … i am ready to scream … i downloaded like 80 pictures of a dollhouse i made … and i wanted to make a slide show of the best photos … sounds simple … well it was not … and when i saved a movie i did not want i could not find it under videos where it was supposed to have been saved … i twice went through all 80 photos and choose the best and put them in order of the house being built and all that … well i have all my pictures in the storyboard and i click on automovie and it makes a movie out of all 80 fricken photos … and adds all the other photos to the storyboard !!! why ??? so i go through again and the same thing happens … first i tried windows help which we all know is no help at all … then i googled help for windows movie maker and even the things they said it did, it did not do on my computer … now i want to throw the computer across the room (now there is an idea, a nerf computer for times like this) even though my poor sweet pink computer bears no blame … so i have basically spent hours and i have really done nothing … windows movie maker sucks …

so my fish spawned … i was so happy because i had heard it is hard to get them to spawn in captivity … so i thought it was cool … and i posted it on a fish forum … well you think i was a criminal or something … i was told they weren’t spawning … my tank was too young … the fish weren’t mature … like a whole shitload of negativity … kind of like telling people you are pregnant and instead of being happy there is an awkward pause … so i ended up emailing this guy who breeds dwarf puffers … and even though we have different first languages he offered some support … but to be honest he seemed like a scientist and therefore somewhat technical about the fish situation … but he had great videos which are always helpful … the fish have been spawning for a while now … the first time i cleaned the tank i looked and looked in the buckets of what had been sucked out of the tank and i could see nothing so down the drain it went … well this time i got some white pails (mine are blue) … and i go and look and there are three swimming dwarf puffer fry … they are so little … i could not find eggs though … even the fish store where i bought the puffers, i mentioned there might be fry and two clerks gave me looks like i was a liar !!! why would someone lie about something like that ??? and clearly it is not that difficult if i have done it … well i havent kept them alive yet … i have them in a net floating in the main tank with a bit of java moss … i don’t think they eat until 7 days old and these are so tiny they must be just hatched … although they could swim up to the top of the water … so screw you all you haters and to the guy from the other side of the world, you rock !!!

so my friend left september 6 … i have not shaved my legs since that time and in my entire adult life i have never gone more than two days without shaving my legs … but as i mentioned, my friend left … we had the MOST AWESOME sex ever for like five years … then he moved to the fricken u.s. … and i guess i am on a shaving sabbatical … but it is completely disgusting … i am a dark haired, light skinned person so you get the mental picture … the shaving boycott had extended to my pits but that was disgusting me so much i had to shave them … i even think men should shave them … i think i may have convinced howard to do so but he had to shower in front of other male co-workers and he sometimes would tell me about the mentality and activities of groups of men (frightening) … anyways … howard was the fricken best … we always had a beverage (and for five years he always brought something i would like, like even though i know he likes beer he never brought beer, that is fricken thoughtful) and a puff and a good old-fashioned groping :o) i always told him he was brought into my life for sexual balance … like i started having sex at 15 and i never had an orgasm with another person until i was 35 so that is like 20 years i was given orgasms and not getting any … howard showed up to balance that out … well howard was not just thoughtful about beverages, he was fricken giving in bed … and oh my god the orgasms … multiple orgasms … g-spot orgasms … and all that time we slept together it was never the same, he always had something up his proverbial sleeve … gotta love that … and he was a man not afraid of lube … MEN/WOMEN -DON’T BE AFRAID OF LUBE !!! apologize for the yelling … and my dog never wanted to kill him … i wish he hates the u.s and comes back but we know that is not going to happen with obama as president :o( maybe the winter thing will get him … i know many of you americans think canada is coated in snow the majority of the time, but vancouver (yes where the winter olympics are coming) does not get much snow … and howard is from africa (no snow) and vancouver (minimal snow) … to where he is now (extreme snow) … i hope he can’t take it as the lack of orgasms is making me bitter :o)

i should start by saying i am not a driver … i have never owned a driver’s license so i have never owned a car … I COULD NOT GIVE RAT’S SHIT IF YOUR CAR GETS STOLEN !!! why set off an alarm that the only person who cares can not hear it !!! i am not against alarms in general but car alarms are the worst as the owner of the car has parked it and gone somewhere else and therefore can not hear the fricken alarm … if the alarm went off and gave an electrical shock to the car owner to get back to their car i would feel better about it … or if people who want car alarms are hit repeatedly in the head just for the privilege of annoying people for the time they own their cars … or if an alarm goes off and it is not silenced within one minute, something that damages the car should happen … if i was a criminal or a vandal, these assholes are the ones i would start with … NO ONE CARES IF YOUR CAR IS STOLEN (well maybe your mom but she is probably the one that turned you into the self-absorbed, don’t give a shit about anyone else person, so fuck your mom too)

this is really a story you can share with your brother … it is disgusting … revolting … and i can barely take it … last night i ate this chicken parmesan made by safeway with red mashed potatoes … i was really hungry as i had only had a glass of orange juice that morning … everything was fine … it tasted good … i ended up watching some tv and fell asleep on the sofa … i woke up at one … i was sitting on the sofa trying to get up the energy to move over to my bed … when i threw up a little in my mouth … i know sick … and it is going to get sicker … so i swallowed it … then i am thinking i just swallowed vomit … and i kept thinking it … and it made me throw up more into my mouth … so i jump up and put my hands over my mouth and head for the bathroom … more vomit fills my mouth to the point it is coming out from around my hands … i can’t stop thinking about how disgusting it is and the vomit keeps coming … like projectile … and it is on my shirt and shorts and down my legs and on my floor and on my bathroom mat and i am finally in front of the toilet and i vomit all over it … and keep vomiting … and the look and smell of the chicken parmesan vomit is making me vomit more … so i move over to the sink and start vomiting into sink … i look over at the fricken mess and vomit more … i start running the water and making the vomit go down the drain and scooping water to rinse my mouth … i finally get the sink clean looking and then i realize i have to clean up all the vomit throughout out my apartment before i go to bed … so i start with the toilet which made me start vomiting again … the rolled up the bathroom mat and it will have to go in the wash … i took my vomit ridden clothes off, also for the laundry … i get a clean towel and start cleaning up my trail of vomit … i then went to bed … when i got up today i realized i had missed vomit on my coffee table and a big splash down on the bathroom door … if you are part of a couple does the partner clean up the vomit ??? i wonder about that …